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Tue, 03 Jan 2006 17:50:18 GMT

so basically; my mom "laid down the law" for me.
she thinks there's something wrong with me?
personally, i feel fine, and she should listen to me.
she says i have no responsibility.
she also says that i'm a total "fuck up".
i think thats the first time i've ever heard her say fuck.
first time for everything i guess.

so i have to spend less time with my friends.
and i also have to get a job.
and if i don't, i have to find somewhere else to live.
i like my house, and kevy.
but i also like my friends.
whatever.
it's probably time to let go to childhood anyway.
nineteen, grow up, move out.

yeah.
gay.

somehow i just don't really care.
at all.

WTH

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 22:39:55 GMT

i didn't trip untill 4.
and i was home, by myself, in my bad, wispering to myself.
actually i called kellie and wispier yelled at her.
and i called kristine &wispered to her.
i laid with the dog in the kitchen?
apparently, i need help.

everything is SOO GOOD.
like colonial diner &staaz.<3

MY PEEPERS ARE JEEPERS LIKE A CREEPER !!

stupid

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 22:52:53 GMT

merry christmas.

it kinda sucked though.
really, no one is friends anymore.
we got arrested last night but i'm not going to explain what happened because it's really long and drug out and stupid and i'm sure no one wants to even hear about it.
actually, i'm tired of explaining it.
but i have cuts on my wrists from handcuffs.
and i found my shoes on the front step?
(thanks for whoever found them?)

i got come handheld computer/ipod thing.
it's probably the best gift ever.
and i'm seriously in love with it.
chole had breakfast with me <3
kellie sprained her ankle and i feel really bad.
only because i sprained mine like 14 times &i know how bad it sucks.

i kinda made up with jes today.
we hung out and it was like, akward, but not at the same time.
know what i mean?
probably not.
but i'm pretty sure sare has herpes.

i couldn't get a hold of kristen today &i cried like a little bitch in the bathroom.
i told my sister i got soap in my eyes so she wouldnt make fun of me.
but apparently she was listening to me cry the whole time.
i miss kristen &i seriusly hope she gets better soon.

this was really long and pointless.
but i love my friends.
and the fact that i have court january 10th.
wish me luck.

p.s. i need a new layout. KEL?

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 01:50:42 GMT

basically.

i think i might be moving out.
i just need to get away from gloucester for a little while.
just so i can concentrate on other things.
like some more school and getting a job or something.
it just feels like i do the same stupid things day in and day out.
and i'm really starting to hate it alot.
i'm afraid if i leave that i'll lose my friends.
but i guess you have to leave to realize what you left behind.
or at least thats what i learned from sex in the city.
i had a really good night. and i didnt want it to end.
but everything comes to an end.
like childhood for instance.
i'm not a little girl anymore &i need some responsibility.
i guess it's just time for me to grow up.

so bye gloucester. <33

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 21:53:48 GMT

KayWithAKristine: i miss you, im freakung alone!

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thats all.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 04:07:04 GMT

i came home and found a two liter bottle of DISTILLED LIZARD WATER on my desk.
i have no idea where it came from.
but i was tempted to drink it.
we got 4 nics tonight,
and we moked with bobby.
we didnt have alot though.
i've been sleeping at kel's house alot lately.
i'm not sure why.
i guess because playing crash by yourself isn't very much fun.
and because we go to dunkin donuts.
jess pretty much stopped talking to me.
well everyone else too for that matter.
which is pretty much fucking stupid.
but i dont really care for some reason.
she's a big girl; she can do whatever she wants.

and that's probably it.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 17:04:33 GMT

yeah half that entry didn't show up.
sucks.

long time no talk

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 17:03:14 GMT

i figured it's about time i update this.
aaron is a faggot &i have no respect for him at all.
actually, ill probably never talk to him again.
pretty shitty but oh well.
i saw tried to stalk out kristine at school but couldnt find her anywhere.
but then i saw her as she was walking out to the bus.
and she started crying and screamed.
that's pretty much when i realized how much i missed her.
<////3 last night was really fucking gay. jess had to be in at 10:30. but uh, i think shes getting over nick? and thats pretty cool. um, nichole didnt come out? i forgot i always get the chance to go out and drink with my friends because i never have school or work or anything. i don't care that much. but i hope she had fun at least, cause i didn't. stacey made me really sad. and i don't even know why. i guess i just hate to see that people changed so much. good thing i used to tell her my every little problem. i just looked at the floor and saw kel's fall out boy cd and it made me really happy <3 bye.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 02:42:37 GMT

i never update this shizzle.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 01:35:23 GMT

tonght was fun.
pictures yater i promise.
pinky promise at that.

KEL COLEYOLEYOH KRUST &STICKYICKY;
i'm going to miss you guys so much.
so here's what you gotta do. get crittered,
bring up the fact that i'm gone, cry,
get more crittered, moke moke moke,
think of me, call me ayot. <333

you dig?

love yous.

p.s. when i get home.
critter + YAKEEEE asap

RAHRAHRAH

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 16:09:41 GMT

we drove to CVS to buy birthday cards for my sister. good thing my mom blasted the beatles in my ear and sang something about a walrus. &jes bought a card for miranda. [P.S. I LEAVE IN 3 DAYS FAGGOTS]. pretty cool that i don't work untill sometime next week.

i was super crittered last night.

we were drinking at the train station with some little girls
that threw up and left to babysit. gay as hell. dude.
&then i drank vodka. ayot at that.
&we saw hoodie a mokemokemoked a tampon.
JES MOKED!!!!!!!
&i got rach to drink some vodka. crazy sXe.
(she spit that shizzle out though. what a waste)
amber got super drunk and was laying all over me
and kissing my kneecaps. then she puked all
over my yipring. gaygaygay.
so kel gave me her spare. and me jes
nick &nich went to my house to moke.
JES&NICK GOT BACK TOGETHER!
and then i passed out on my lawn &uh
ralphed up a lipring. or two.
and i was covered in dirt and puke.
&i didnt know where i was but i appologized
to aaron ayot. & he tried to carry me home
but good ol' aunt nance came &picked us up.

then i died in a trashcan and i all i can really remember is that couch, that boy, and wondering where my pants were at 5 in the morning. long story short, last night was pretty rad.

so you fuckers have untill 5pm wednesday to love me before i leave. jump on it.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 20:08:46 GMT

basically; i love my mexnigs.

they own my heart.
&they make me really happy.

unlike shopwrong that owns my life.

sjhfjfdkhj

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 18:43:34 GMT

this was probably the longest weekend of my life. oh; and this is probably going to be really long, so, uh, i warned you?

i didn't work that much. but i worked enough to make some money. not that i have any of the money left. but it's the principle, right?

i pretty much got in a huge fight with my mom last night and left without saying anything. then i fell asleep at jess's for a real long time. well, long enough for her to go out with kel and cole without me. mostly because i was too asleep to wake up. i hate being woken up more than anything. so it's a good thing jess knows this. (PSH I'M SORRY COLE AND KEL!)

and uh jess had some parties. two to be exact. the first one was beter, wether i passed out at 3 or not. normally you'd be like. oh 3 aint bad. well it is if the party lasts till 7 in the morning. but yeah, i like my friends alot. and they're a fun time. except when people threaten to hit people and steal shit. which really pissed me off. and this weekend was so long that i forgot wether this all happened on night number one or two. but we played roomraiders (both nights). and i had my .. friend? over for one of the nights. and shes really nice. really really nice. and everyone liked her? i guess. everyone said they did .. at least to her face. but uh, i probably wont ever see her again due to the fact that my parents took away my car privelges.

so i'm probably gonna get like, a second job to buy a car. or something.

anyway; when i get an oppinion of a person, it usually helps to to .. keep a grude? and that sucks for certain people i spent time with this weekend. even the smallest thing makes me think: dude, i really don't like you very much. it's even harder if that person is one of your friends. a good friend at that. so i mean, talking and hanging uot with them shouldnt be a problem. but i wont be all YAY I GET TO SEE YOU about it. and i hope everyone knows that.

i'm really not a nice girl.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 21:38:27 GMT

it's very confusing and no one knows.
but i wont get into that right now.

i hung out with kel yesterday & did her makeup.
of course she did mine in return.
it was real nice.

i fucking miss coley kristine and gab
and fucking JESSICA. a whole lot.

sure wish shoprtie didnt own me.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 18:57:32 GMT

i'm still single.
and it's pretty upsetting.
but, whatev.
georgia's real gay anyway.
i mean, there's no wawa.
or spongie parks.

oh and tomorrow is wednesday.
you know what that means.

i havent seen cole or any of them in what
really seems like forever.
and i miss yous.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 04:33:11 GMT

we went to see this "atco goat"
jes practially cried.
kel wouldn't hold my hand.
idfk what cole & kris were doing.
long story short:

we saw a scary guy in a quad.
he sized us up and everything.

good thing my doors lock. sorta.

hotel party?! wtf bitches!!

so uh it's probably a good thing that kelly cole kristine and jessica own my heart?

wtf

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 22:43:10 GMT

i have to go to the doctor's.
i'm not really sure why.
but i should talk to someone.
shit's crazy.

i love nich & kel. &i miss them.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 01:48:20 GMT

Text Entry. I LOVE KELLIE.