fuck child birth [Jan 03th] [ mood | <- for kris ] [ music | anberlin ] so basically; my mom "laid down the law" for me. she thinks there's something wrong with me? personally, i feel fine, and she should listen to me. she says i have no responsibility. she also says that i'm a total "fuck up". i think thats the first time i've ever heard her say fuck. first time for everything i guess. so i have to spend less time with my friends. and i also have to get a job. and if i don't, i have to find somewhere else to live. i like my house, and kevy. but i also like my friends. whatever. it's probably time to let go to childhood anyway. nineteen, grow up, move out. yeah. gay. somehow i just don't really care. at all. read (1) comment

WTH [Dec 29th] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | some saves the gay shit ] i didn't trip untill 4. and i was home, by myself, in my bad, wispering to myself. actually i called kellie and wispier yelled at her. and i called kristine &wispered to her. i laid with the dog in the kitchen? apparently, i need help. everything is SOO GOOD. like colonial diner &staaz.<3 MY PEEPERS ARE JEEPERS LIKE A CREEPER !! comment

stupid [Dec 25th] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | alexisonfire ] merry christmas. it kinda sucked though. really, no one is friends anymore. we got arrested last night but i'm not going to explain what happened because it's really long and drug out and stupid and i'm sure no one wants to even hear about it. actually, i'm tired of explaining it. but i have cuts on my wrists from handcuffs. and i found my shoes on the front step? (thanks for whoever found them?) i got come handheld computer/ipod thing. it's probably the best gift ever. and i'm seriously in love with it. chole had breakfast with me <3 kellie sprained her ankle and i feel really bad. only because i sprained mine like 14 times &i know how bad it sucks. i kinda made up with jes today. we hung out and it was like, akward, but not at the same time. know what i mean? probably not. but i'm pretty sure sare has herpes. i couldn't get a hold of kristen today &i cried like a little bitch in the bathroom. i told my sister i got soap in my eyes so she wouldnt make fun of me. but apparently she was listening to me cry the whole time. i miss kristen &i seriusly hope she gets better soon. this was really long and pointless. but i love my friends. and the fact that i have court january 10th. wish me luck. p.s. i need a new layout. KEL? read (2) comment

[Nov 29th] basically. i think i might be moving out. i just need to get away from gloucester for a little while. just so i can concentrate on other things. like some more school and getting a job or something. it just feels like i do the same stupid things day in and day out. and i'm really starting to hate it alot. i'm afraid if i leave that i'll lose my friends. but i guess you have to leave to realize what you left behind. or at least thats what i learned from sex in the city. i had a really good night. and i didnt want it to end. but everything comes to an end. like childhood for instance. i'm not a little girl anymore &i need some responsibility. i guess it's just time for me to grow up. so bye gloucester. <33 read (2) comment

[Nov 24th] KayWithAKristine: i miss you, im freakung alone! Auto response from xotastieox: yeah. not freaking out. sucks. out? sleeping out? yeahbye. KayWithAKristine: i love youi KayWithAKristine: youir on the same level KayWithAKristine: holy shbgit KayWithAKristine: im in space boots KayWithAKristine: i love you KayWithAKristine: be with meeee. ahhhhhhhhh. i wish you could feel this force field thats all. comment

[Nov 21th] i came home and found a two liter bottle of DISTILLED LIZARD WATER on my desk. i have no idea where it came from. but i was tempted to drink it. we got 4 nics tonight, and we moked with bobby. we didnt have alot though. i've been sleeping at kel's house alot lately. i'm not sure why. i guess because playing crash by yourself isn't very much fun. and because we go to dunkin donuts. jess pretty much stopped talking to me. well everyone else too for that matter. which is pretty much fucking stupid. but i dont really care for some reason. she's a big girl; she can do whatever she wants. and that's probably it. comment

[Nov 08th] yeah half that entry didn't show up. sucks. comment

long time no talk [Nov 08th] [ music | journey ] i figured it's about time i update this. aaron is a faggot &i have no respect for him at all. actually, ill probably never talk to him again. pretty shitty but oh well. i saw tried to stalk out kristine at school but couldnt find her anywhere. but then i saw her as she was walking out to the bus. and she started crying and screamed. that's pretty much when i realized how much i missed her. <////3 last night was really fucking gay. jess had to be in at 10:30. but uh, i think shes getting over nick? and thats pretty cool. um, nichole didnt come out? i forgot i always get the chance to go out and drink with my friends because i never have school or work or anything. i don't care that much. but i hope she had fun at least, cause i didn't. stacey made me really sad. and i don't even know why. i guess i just hate to see that people changed so much. good thing i used to tell her my every little problem. i just looked at the floor and saw kel's fall out boy cd and it made me really happy <3 bye. comment

[Oct 24th] i never update this shizzle. read (1) comment

[Oct 04th] tonght was fun. pictures yater i promise. pinky promise at that. KEL COLEYOLEYOH KRUST &STICKYICKY; i'm going to miss you guys so much. so here's what you gotta do. get crittered, bring up the fact that i'm gone, cry, get more crittered, moke moke moke, think of me, call me ayot. <333 you dig? love yous. p.s. when i get home. critter + YAKEEEE asap read (2) comment

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